It was a miserable winter night and this guy came over in the middle of an awful ice storm, and we got right to business. They went out to do some last-minute Christmas shopping, so I opened my app (this was when apps were new) and invited a guy over for some fun. Again, I ONLY wished I had known and was able to help him before he destroyed himself.Twelve years ago, before I was out of the closet, I went to stay with my parents in Ohio for Christmas. I found out not long after that meeting that he had died. At that time I didnt do the party scene very much. THAT was the last time I saw him, I didnt know he had a bad drug problem. I was walking to the beach that day and turned the corner on the sidewalk and he was coming the opposite way and we bumped into one another. The last time I saw him was on a trip to Miami Beach. Took off my towel and well, the rest was a few mins of unexpected fun. He came out of the bathroom and I was shocked to see him there, He came into my room. I got up on morning and lo and behold my roommate at the time had apparently brought him home that night and had left for work leaving him there to clean up. He was a real mans man!īesides John (Jeff) I also knew MATT GUNTHER. I was SO sad for him and only WISHED I would have known he was slipping that far down that day I saw him and I WISH I would have gotten out and at least TRIED to talk to him and maybe help him. Not long after that I had heard he passed away. Im sure he was doing way too much drugs and drinking. He had lost so much weight and size and looked very bad. I had moved out of Hollywood around 96 and on one trip back I pulled over to park along the street and the car ahead of me parking too was Jeff driving some old fart. I had done my share of model work as well. Back then I was also a big dude on the scene there in Hollywood. He did have a daughter by some gal he use to be with.
when I kinda felt he had this attraction towards me but didnt wanna give his gayness away even though he did gay porn he kinda always acted like he was straight. John would always walk by my balcony with his rotweiler dog in the morning and he yell up stupid things to me AS IF he wasnt gay or something like that. He and I had a strange attraction to one another. John, or his real name, Jeff was a friend of mine back in the 90s.He lived down the street from me. You may get 41500 a shoot but if you get 1 a month you cant live on that. The reason rent boy shutting as such a huge deal because for most poen guys that is how they make most of their money. they are making great money 2 years later no one will cast them they feel alone and isolatted How do thee guys who own the studios sleep at night? Whts worse you have more young gay guys wanting to do porn than at any other time. This is n epidemic caued by the porn industry they get new boys do a ton of shoots with them. these bots geel boxed in they dont have a lot of self confidence nd think they are only good for sex. i know some wil sy it was rgeir chouce but chived you ke at 17 are ofreen not the chouces you would make at even25. There us a special place in hell for thr thr ownerd of the studios. the studios need to pitch in build a drig rehab and a psych hospota o pit thrdr guys back on the right trck. They have deep regrets for their choiced I bet and drugs take the pain away. What happensto these guys when they turn even 40. I atch porn so I am not judging guys who watch porn.